Yesterday I had the opportunity that only God knew I desired. I was asked to speak to those many would reject. I have always prayed for the opportunity to do so and God knew this and gave me the opportunity.
It was truly an amazing experience and I’m grateful that God choose me to do so. As I encountered more of God in this place I was able to understand more. I was able to feel a fresh wind, a fresh fire upon me.
There was a moment that I looked across the room and saw my coach, my supporter the one that continues to say there is more Gods not done yet. I noticed at that moment I had been rejecting Gods workmanship. What a moment…. in front of all of these people was I really going to break down and cry… no I could not. I had to pull myself together.
My husband, my pastor, my right hand. Yes, I was rejecting Gods workmanship. Always telling him … hey you can’t talk this way, dress this way, act this way… who in the world did I think I was. I had this image of how “A Pastor is Suppose to look.” How ignorant of me.
At that moment the senior pastor asked for someone to take off their blazer (suit jacket). He hung it up on the mic stand and starting to put his ear near it and say talk to me about God!
Mind blown 🤯 seriously! What a wake up call. The truth is as much as we say we don’t judge a book by its cover or we don’t judge how a person talks, walks, acts…. We do!! Well I did.
He continued to say how we reject Gods creation because of appearance or mis judgement. Could it be that me His very own wife was creating a disconnect. Was I making him feel not good enough, not capable.
“But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.”
1 Corinthians 1:27 NIV
I had conviction and accepted I was not the best of the best. I had failed in this area not once but many times. I for a moment became so disappointed with myself and asked God to forgive me. I knew that this was also one of the reasons he had allowed me to come before this group of people to share the message of hope and being purposeful.
As it continued to resonate in me I started to think of the young Pastor in California Pastor Andrew and how he had taken his life away. How depression had come over him. I asked God please keep me alert, keep me aware. What would I do… how would I be able to go on in life if I had in my heart the feeling of being the cause that the man I love felt incapable or felt less of the image people wanted to see because of my stupidity and ignorance.
I share this today because a lesson has been learned, I will never look down or think less of anyone. I will only believe, encourage and love each one of that persons imperfections just as Jesus does. I know this could be a shock to many who read it but as I have always said I’m transparent, authentic, real… I have my struggles, my battles and I’m definitely not exempt, nor perfect and neither are you.
Always know…. each person is Gods masterpiece Gods True workmanship never try to change them, instead accept and love them just as Jesus only knows to do!
Let’s be the light in the darkness and help those who suffer or battle from depression. We are their only hope.
Be Loved 💕