Pride

#Day5 #RECKLESSLOVE
#PRIDE 
So could there still be pride in me… it’s a question that I asked myself yesterday. Today I have had the entire day to reflect on this. I can’t possibly have pride in me Im a daughter of Christ, a minister of the word there is no way…it’s not possible never not me. Many of us think this way.  
It was shocking to ask myself this and truly it could only be revealed to a broken person. You have to be broken to acknowledge that the problem is actually there.  
Today’s story goes like this. In my current season of transition I have found myself in great need financially, mentally and physically. Yes, I know cry out to the Lord and he will respond I know this I preach this but why is it so hard to tell someone else I need help it’s the whole thing of what will people think… a leader, pastor, minister in such need. Well as I open my heart to #RECKLESS LOVE I encounter that it’s the first day of school and my daughter who is 12 years old has nothing to start her first day of school with. I don’t know about you guys but when I was growing up even if we did not have mama would figure it out and buy something so you could represent. With all that’s taking place I truly did not have absolutely anything to send her off on her first day and there was the schedule issue with new school. 

It was hard for me because in my process of brokenness God is saying trust me it’s all going to be ok. I would do whatever to get her what she needed to go to school I guess you can say I was one of those that would keep up with the “Jones” I don’t know how many of you know about that but yeah I guess you can say I was one of those. However, this time I really didn’t even try to go out of my way I remained still I said Lord you need to step in and take control you need to provide. I heard Him say your “PRIDEFUL” He told me to speak up… to ask. WHAT…..me ask… I can’t …I’m the one that is always giving. I can’t ask.   

He said why can’t you humble yourself …There is pride in your heart. 
Shortly after I received a message what do you need? Why haven’t you asked? In that instant I knew it was God reaching out.  
Today’s Blog shares with you that #PRIDE will destroy you. This is the story of a woman, a mother, a daughter, a sister, a pastor on her road towards restoration #RECKLESSLOVE

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